Katz I am so sorry. I am not good with words and I have never known anyone who committed suicide so I don't really know what to say and I have no advice for you so I just wanted to offer my ear if you ever need to just talk. Gob bless you and your family.
Old Irish Blessing of Peace
Deep peace I breathe into you Oh weariness here, O ache, here! Deep peace, a soft white dove to you; Deep peace, a quiet rain to you; Deep peace, an ebbing wave to you! Deep peace, red wind of the east from you; Deep peace, gray wind of the west to you; Deep peace, dark wind of the north from you; Deep peace, pure red of the flame to you; Deep peace, pure white of the moon to you; Deep peace, pure green of the grass to you; Deep peace, pure brown of the living earth to you; Deep peace, pure gray of the dew to you; Deep peace, pure blue of the sky to you; Deep peace of the running wave to you, Deep peace of the flowing air to you, Deep peace of the quiet Earth to you, Deep peace of the sleeping stones to you, Deep peace of the yellow shepherd to you, Deep peace of the wandering shepherdess to you, Deep peace of the Flock of Stars to You. Deep peace of the Son of Peace to You. Deep Peace, Deep Peace.
Oooh, good blessing, GinaH! Yes, I have moved on, but I still have some horrid thoughts in my head that a teenager should not be thinking. I was also a victim of child abuse when I was 3 & 4, courtesy of a daycare provider. Thank God she is behind bars now. Beacuse of her, I now walk with a limp. Not a big one, just an abnormal walk. She stuffed us behind chairs, stuffed our mouths, and slapped us all. HARD. But she was always nice around my parents. Then, when my mom was giving me a bath, she noticed a big, red handprint on my butt. Then she knew something was wrong. She is now behind bars.
Allie that is horrible but I am glad your mom noticed and did something. Too often things like that go unnoticed or get explained away. Espcially when the kids are too young to explain. I am truly amazed but very happy that you are such a nice well adjusted person. You have certainly had more than your share of trials. Hopefully things will only get better from here.
Allie Bless your heart! Great big hugs! If you ever need to chat please feel free to I-M me or email anytime! My husband is a youth counselor at our church and I know he would be willing to talk with you to if you ever need it. We also have a great support group of young teens at our church who have made great friends through pen pals.
"Cricketmom: if you think suicide is selfish I want you to understand the attempts, the depression, really step into a suicidal persons shoes. You have no idea till you do."
Frosty, I also believe that it is a VERY selfish thing to do. You don't get rid of your problems, you just pass them off to the ones who love you. I do know understand the attempts, the depression, I have been there. But I had to stop thinking about myself and started to think about my mom and family and friends.That made me stop, and i am happy that i did. I wouldn't be were i am today if i had ever completly went through with it. The pain it causes all the loved ones isn't worth it in my oppion.
Okay, I seriousely thought that it could not get any worse but yet again, it has. Now there is an investigation going that the possibilities are there that his girlfriend may have murdered him! They are still claiming suicide until they can prove otherwise but my god, when will this stop?
My fiancee' has been awesome, he knows that things have been stressing me out so we are going to go see Yanni tomorrow! I am not a big Yanni fan, meaning I do not really know anything of what he plays, but it will a MUCH needed break.
Thank you all for your support. By the way, I do not remember who asked me about the doctor or nurse but the doctor that they see is my ex doctor and chances are slim he would say anything if it was put right in front of his face. And since no one can prove anything...and my sisters won't talk.