I don't know if anyone remembers some things I posted about Molly in the past. She was a little girl bulldog that I purchased from a breeder sometime around late August. Well, to make a long story short, she had a severe birth defect. She had hypoplastic trachea. It was one of the worst that the emergency vet had seen and she developed severe pneumonia as a result. They put her on a respirator for a day and a half and after $4000.00 in vet bills, I ultimately had to have her put down. The doctor said that her chances of getting over the pneumonia were not good and even if she could survive it, she would be "subjected to a life of discomfort because of her condition". They said it would probably take at least a week of having her in the critical care unit at a cost of about $1000 a day minimum. That was only assuming that she starts to improve. I only had her for two short weeks and in those two weeks I fell completely in love with her. She was the sweetest thing in the world. Now it's been three months since I lost her and I cannot get over it. I can't get over this feeling that somehow I murdered her. The doctors told me that I would probably feel tremendous guilt about it but I didn't think it would hit me this hard. I'm falling apart right now while I am writing this. What am I supposed to do to get over this?
I would get a new puppy, too. Not to replace the other one or anything, but to get your mind off of her. She was suffering and since she would not have gotten better, you did the only thing possible. Don't blame yourself, at least she's not suffering anymore.
Mollysmom- I am so sorry about your loss. I can relate I lost my cat 4 years ago until to day its hurt very badly and I always cry when I think or talk oabout her. Me too I was left with such a high vet bill and no pet to show for it. Your loss is still fresh in your mind but as the days turn into months and even years it will get easier I promise. I have a pillow that my cat loved to sleep on everyday I look at it I get comfort in knowing that she is in a better place and it reminds me of the good times I had with her. It will take time but it will get better in due time. My thought are with you.
I got Molly to be a playmate for the male I got in July. I wanted two dogs and I got a boy and a girl because I was told they would fight less than two girls or two boys. I do have another girl now but it hasn't really made a difference as far as how I feel about Molly. Right now Dino is sitting at my feet pawing at my leg and wimpering. I'm upset and it's making him nervous.
molly, I know it's so painful to make a decision on when to end a life of one of our animal kids. But you had no other choice. It's very natural to grieve. I still grieve for my babies years later.
What you need to do is count your blessings for all the good things you have and all the good thing you're capable of doing. If you're able, go to a shelter and save a life in the name of Molly. She will be so proud of you.
molly, you didn't murder her, you released her. you did the most selfless thing a person could do; you ended her suffering, you let her go even though you would have to suffer in her absence. i am so sorry for what happened, and what you are going through, i cannot imagine how you must feel. but i think now, if you really want to get over this, you need to release yourself. find an outlet for your torment; volunteer at a shelter, talk to a therapist, spend more time with molly's playmate...in other words, do something proactive to take your mind off your suffering. and in the meantime, know that molly is free now from all the pain, and soon hopefully you will be too.
PitPat, those last two sentences made me cry again. In my head I have the common sense to know that what you guys are saying is true. Still I feel devastated because she was soooo cheated out of the life that she deserved.
I understand how you feel about your loss. We got us a cocker-bichon mixed puppie in October after waiting three years since putting our poodle to sleep due to cancer. We had the poodle for 12 years. To make a long story short, someone ran over our baby two weeks ago on purpose in front of my 10 year old son. We went out and got a new puppy who was sick and almost died after only one day. We had to return it. We are still looking. I miss my Susie so much. I cried for a week as she was my baby. It is like loosing a family member. Hang in there.