A few months ago I got a little/little puppy. She only weighed 1.3 pounds and very fiesty! She loved to chase the cats and sleep with the kittens I rescued. Knowing because of her being so small , The vet and I satdown and figured a good routine, Nutrical supplement special mixed food I processed in the blender, etc. she started going down on me a week and a half ago with four visits to the vet. The heating pad was no longer working she wanted to be with mommie! So everynight she slept right next to me and would cuddle by my neck.
She was very very spoiled!! It was like having a child again. Mine children are both older and on there own.
I woke up yesterday morning and she had died while sleeping on my neck!! The vet feels because of her being a runt (even though she was five months) Her organs were never able to fully develope.
I don't think I have cried so much!!! It was loosing my child! Just to see any of her toys, bed, anything just tore me up! My kids came and took everything that was hers when I was gone so it didn't upset me and donated to a family that just got a puppy.
I know they meant well But I guess I wasn't ready to part with it yet.
For months I have done special feedings at two and for in the morning.
I am so very sorry for your loss. But at least she passed right there with you, in comfort. You know she went thinking of you and relaxed. Nothing in the world an no words can make this pain subside, but know we are all truely sorry and we're here to listen.
i am tearing up just reading this. my rocky sleeps cuddled up to my neck or against my cheek. i would be devasted to wake and find that he'd passed in his sleep. hopefully it is some comfort to know that she was at peace when she went. no suffering. soooo sorry for your loss. ((((( hugs )))))
***Edited By: dusty082155 on 1/29/2006 1:19:51 PM*** Reason: spell
Thankyou everyone! The one thing I do realize this little girl know we loved her!!! And I am glad I was with her!
But... This is so hard! I try and do something and get my mind off of it. After two months of a solid routine, everything I go to do I think ok its time to feed her etc. I went out to feed the horses even and its so funny how animals can sense your pain! My favorite horse came up and kept wanting to nudge me! (Normally a pig when the sweetfeed comes) She just kept following me.
She chose to stay with me instead of getting her feed (If you knew my gal) Thats unheard of!!
My husband told me God works in mysterious ways and he is always with you, just lean on him. I truly believe this But.... Today God has gifted my animals with the ability to feel my pain and make me laugh! Which is much needed right now!
It's been a very long time since I didn't show up at church, But... You know what a night of crying does. I chose to stay home.
THANK YOU !!!!! So much You all have really been great to read your posts really seems to help! mY HUSBAND THINKS i NEED TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE, so he is takingme to dinner, he came home with flowers for me earlier!!! What a special Man!!!!
(to be honest I would drather stay home) But... He is trying to do something special for me, I don't want to ruin it for him!
I just hope we don't run into anyone I know, we live in a fairly small town. If someone asks me how shes doing I will Loose IT... Thanks again you have all been great through this!!!!! Majorlover
I am so sorry for your loss. This makes me cry. I will pray for you. Like the others said, at least your baby passed on while sleeping comfortably by your side. I'm sure it was peaceful passing in the night. Your baby is now with God in a better place.
I agree with your hubby. Have a small memorial service and then find some other activity to occupy your time and more importantly, your mind.
I don't come here very often anymore, but for some reason, something made me visit today.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've lost dogs and I I once lost a puppy, so I know what it's like, and I know the pain you feel. Out of all the dogs I've had and lost, , losing the puppy was the hardest because she never had a chance. It ust seems so unfair. Try and take comfort in the fact that she knew she was loved. and she didn't die alone or unwanted at a Shelter.
Here is a link to the Rinbow Bridge, which I hope wil also give you some comfort. I'm sure your little one is there now running around with my little pup and my other dogs and are having a good time, while witing for us to see them again.
Cinnaeve, thankyou! Yeah My husband and I are both into woodworking we have over 365 birdhouse, 12 owl houses, and fifteen squirrel houses. My husband surprised me yeserday with a cedar custom built coffin with satin lining! We buried her next to my Japenese golds fish pond. She will forever here the waterfall! Well time to go everyone for now.... Wish me luck I dont run into anyone! THANK YOU AGAIN!!!!!! majorlover
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your puppy. It is impossible not to become too attached to our pets I have tried and it never works; does it?? I thought your puppy was really lucky to have you, you did every thing for her and she was loved so much. I am sure she slipped away peacefully cuddling you and not wired up to a drip or some thing on her own. She knew she was loved. I am so sorry for you though. I hope you can see through the misery that you are feeling now. Good luck.
well I tried the dinnner, didn't work to well! I actually was laughing and having fun until my hairdresser came up and said (I heard about your dog I am so sorry)) I polietly said thank you butIt was time to leave we ended up taking our food home. I know it sounds stupiid but I just get really emotional!! I do tend to get very attached BUT.... Even worse with her! She was my baby.
I really do thank everyone for posting it really does help to have the support!!!! Thank you harlee29 Thank you so much for the site you put on!!!!! I am going to do that! Thanks again everyone!