Even though I have more cats than dogs I am mostly a dog person (but NEVER tell the cats that.) Like most people I favor certain breeds … my breeds of choice are the gun dogs and the herding dogs. That said… it follows that I am member of many online animal/breed groups. My dilemma is I also do animal rescue. Everyday I scan the websites of Shelters looking for animals I may be able to help save. I look into they eyes of these animals that have lost hope…. Dumped, beaten, abused … they sit there waiting to die, and I know that the fact is I can’t save them all.
I see the Labs, the Goldens, the Aussie Cattle Dog’s, the Aussie Shepherds, the Border Collies, the Coon Hounds, the German Shepherds, the list goes on… and it breaks my heart because I know most of them will die far to young with a heart Stick, or by Gas, or by a needle in the vein before help can ever reach them. I cry and I mourn each death quietly in my own way, knowing that today I maybe managed to get one of the 100 into rescue.
Looking for some solace from the pain I go to my breed groups and I read about the antics of the many much loved pets, I laugh at them tipping over the water bowl, diving into the lake, and I smile at the photos of those beautiful souls smiling for the camera and my heart warms again for an instant.
All to soon the moment is gone when I open the next post and read “I am proud to announce Maggie had 12 puppies last night.” Suddenly my heart chills and I see the sad faces of 12 dogs that will die because “Maggie had puppies last night.” I feel a scream trapped in my throat as I say to myself “Oh god NOOOOOO.”
I love puppies … I love puppy breath … I love training puppies, I love the joy puppies bring… so why does this make me so sad, surely I should be happy for Maggie’s owner? How can I balance this? The truth is, I can’t! I see the pictures of these newborns, they are Black Labs, or Goldens, or ACD’s, or Aussies, or GSD etc, all the breeds I adore, and I am sad … because now I have to go back and look at the faces of those about to die … I have to get the details and forward them because now I have to get 11 more of that 100 into rescue.
Do I have the answer to this conundrum? NO! So I will do what I can and try to save just one more.