Thank you all for your help. For a while I had wondered lately if anyone in the world still had feelings and cared about anything, but you all have let me see there is still some goodness left out there. I'm so glad that I came here for help. It has been more healing than I imagined.
I did get a puppy a few weeks before I let BB go, but not to help my pain, because I knew nothing would help that. Last night I read your posts and cried like a baby, the puppy(Trevor) was playing on the floor and he stopped and jumped up on my lap and curled up in a little ball and just sat there and looked at me like "I'll take care of your heart". He just laid there for hours with me and wouldn't leave me. At first I wasn't sure if I wanted him or not. I asked him if BB told him to watch after me and he stood up and put his head on my shoulder. Something tells me that this is the case. So I'm glad he is here. I never wanted another dog when I had BB. Something keeps telling me to get another one, so maybe I will.
Trevor is too cute! Let yourself love him and dont feel bad for doing so. Hes not or wont take the place of your other baby, but God puts things/people/animals in our lives just when we need them the most. Good luck to you.