I'm so sorry, it is so hard to lose your baby. You just remember how happy he made you. What a great life you gave him.
Over the last 40 years I have lost a few also. I will never forget them. I will remember what they brought to my life. Their each little personality and how wonderful they are.
Life is a short time, he is playing at rainbow bridge waiting for the day to be with you again.
My wonderful friend lost her kitty a short time ago. I so wanted to get her another but she didn't want it. The very next day there was a tiny black kitten that was sitting in her tree. The joy the stray kitten is bringing to her life made things a little easier to remember the love not the loss.
Thankyou so much for your kind words and support.The house seems so quiet without him. Tomorrow morning will be very hard for me he won't be here to greet me saying "Mamma" yes he realy did call me that. I know he picked it up from the kids years ago.This all seems like a bad dream and I want so much to wake up from it.