Thanks for the kind words everyone! She is gone now, and all that is left is an empty dog bed, a broken heart and wonderful memories. This just doesn't seem real, i can't believe my Angel is gone. I just hope she is happy again, i told her how much she means to me before my mom took her to the vet. She knows how thankful i am to have had such an amazing dog. I couldn't go to the vet and watch them just take her away, that would make it all worse, so i stayed home and sat in her dog bed with a picture of her. Today her tongue was pale and so were her ears, and her breath was horrible because of her kidney and thryoid problems, then i just knew it was time. I feel so crappy right now, thanks again.
I'm still going to come on this website even though i don't have a pet anymore, it's just makes me feel better talking about her memories and all. I'm sure i'll end up getting another dog someday, i want to save an animal, but it has to be a miniature poodle. I won't be getting another pet for a long time.
I'm so sorry for your loss. You did the right thing by staying at home and letting your Mom handle it for you. You need to remember the happy and healthy Angel that brought you such joy and love. Not what happened today, but what you shared in all the days that came before.
I am so sorry, bless your heart. I answered your pm before I read this and didn't realize she was already gone. Its normal to cry and grieve and don't let anyone make you feel bad about it. Getting all that hurt out helps. I cried everytime Max's name was mentioned. Even tonite we were talking about him at dinner and I started the waterworks. But tears are healing and you grieve and take your time about getting over your loss. After all she was your best friend.
I'm so sad to hear about your sweet little Angel. I remember reading your past posts and hoping that she'd recover. It brings back memories of my last cocker spaniel that we had to let go, I remember holding him for hours while telling him how much I'd miss him, the night before my dad took him in. It's tough but you'll get through it. Angel is happier now where she is and you gave her the best gift ever, freedom.
My thoughts are with you! :::Big Hugs:::
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lucky lady, here is how we got Angel! When I was in second grade, me and my brothers and sister had wanted a dog sooooo bad. We kept begging my parents for one, and noticed my mom kept asking our friends parents about a good breeder for poodles. While we were all at school, my mom went to a breeders house, and the lady was dyeing and trying to get rid of the puppies so they all had homes, my mom said their were two puppies left. She said Angel walked up to her and was very gentle aand wanted to play. My mom new Angel was the one, so she said she picked her up payed for her then went to get puppy supplies. When we got home, their was this big blue dog cage, and my brother didn't see anything in their, but i did, i was in complete shock. We were all fighting over who got to hold her first or who gets to kiss her adorable wet nose. We got Angel pretty early, she was about 4-5 weeks old, so my mom had to make alot of vet visits to make sure she was getting the proper nutrition without her doggy mommy their. I remember we all had to sit on the couch to hold her, since she was so fragile, we couldn't play with her at the beginning. Angel was the cutest dog i had ever seen. She defiantly completed are family. Now we feel like a huge part of the family is missing, but she is in our hearts and memories and she is happy watching over us. I still miss her, but i feel relieved and happy to know that she feels better. Their are still a few tears every now and then, but then we think of her life with us and all the stupid things she did. Angel was an hilarious dog, always making us laugh, no dog is perfect, and thats what makes them so special. She use to chase a soccer ball, and she would jup on it while it was moving and ended up landing on the ball and doing a flip on her head with the ball rolling over her. Angel used to give me these funny shocked looking faces as if to say, did that just happen? She is just so special to me, and she is already missed badly. We had to take all her stuff out of her room, becuase every time we walked by and saw an empty dog bed, we all just started crying. The backyard just looks so boreing now, angel was my little bundle of joy!Angel used to like that agility chute i got for christmas, she loved running through that thing, except one time she tripped on the fabric inside the chute, i started crying i was laughing so hard, angel had an embaressed look on her face, it was so cute. Angel defiantly saw right through me, and new what she could get away with, or what would make me happy. She used to go in the bathrooms and steal trash out of the trash cans, then come up to me and tease me with it, i used to get so mad, because she would try to eat it and hide run away with it and hide, now it's just funny to me. That dog was a miracle in my life. I don't know how I ever got so lucky with a dog like her. :) I miss her, but shes doing great! I sleep with the blanket with her picture on it. It's really neat blanket, i'll have to take a picture of it sometime.
I was dreading this post so much that I can't even express it. It's posts like these that really make me realize the mortality of our beloved pets. How do you prepare yourself for something like this?
I'm so sorry about Angel, my heart breaks for you. I won't tell you that she's in a better place.. or she's happy now.. and all of that jazz. I know none of that would help ME feel better if I was in your position.. but, I will tell you that I'm positive Angel had the best home that she could have ever wished for.
Angel is happy and she is in a better place, i know it in my heart. I question it sometimes, but then i wonder why i feel so relieved to have let her go. It's not like I was happy to see her go, but It was making me sick waking up to a dog that was ill, and wondering what i was going to feed her each day and if she would even eat it or how I was going to get the pills down her, I was sad to let her go, but it wasn't about me anymore, it was time to show that dog how much i loved her bye taking her out of her mysery. Yesterday was the first day I saw her be in pain, and I couldn't handle it. I think God was preparing me bye slowly taking my best friend away rather than me waking up one day and she was just gone, that would just break my heart even more, then i would have never gotten to say goodbye. I had plenty of time to say goodbye to her, and now I am beginning to understand why it took so long it was still so hard, but I'm doing ok. It still hurts talking about hr, or walking bye an empty dog bed or looking through her things. I saw her dog collar in her cabinet with a dog tag on it that said Angel, its just so sad to think that she won't ever wear that collar again, I already miss her soooo much. It sucked, because i went to the mail box to get the mail today, and for the first time, i didnt' have a dog to follow me outside to get the mail. It sucks, because now I don't have a dog here with me to hang out with or play fetch or swim with. I have never in my life gone swimming with out her their. Everything I did had Angel involved, she was always right thier beside me. I'm doing a little bit better though, she's watching over me happyily playing with other pets and family members up their in heaven. I just can't wait to see her again!
Thank you so much, MPR, for sharing your very wonderful "Angel-story" on how Angel joined your family! She must have been soooo tiny when you first saw her & I know it was "love at first sight" - for BOTH of you.
Angel couldn't have been adopted into a more loving family & the look on your face when you first saw her will always remain one of those very, VERY special "once in a lifetime" moments for your mom I'm sure.
I love the story of Angel with the soccer ball, too, & it had me laughing through my tears! Dollars to doughnuts there are plenty of soccer balls in Heaven & God, too, is enjoying Angel's antics with a smile on His face & a sparkle in His eye as she romps around happy & healthy & free of pain!
Dogs have taught me all I need to know about life, love, loyalty, & laughter; & (heartbreakingly), loss & "letting go" of a loved one as well. God bless ‘em…
oh honey i am so sorry.. my last dog that died she was a chow chow and we were at the lake house and there was this man that did not like her well when we were out fishing we come home to the cabin and see my two brothers in law and they were digging into the ground. i yelled "what are you guys doing? did you kill your dog? ( just joking around) and well when my daughter haley (she was about 9) came running into the cabin yelling sophie and she came out screaming "wheres sophie!?!" and it turned out that scott and dan (brothers in laws) found sophie died and when we went to the guys house he was not home and people had seen him at my cabin. it was really hard for my family and i know how you feel to have to put down your baby just know that it gets better and know that she is always with you.
Poodlerocks, your story has brought tears to my eyes. I just lost my fur-nephew who, although he was not mine, was my best friend who was always there to protect me and lick my wounds. Though it's still not the same as your own dog, the anguish you must feel is overwhelming. I will keep you and Angel in my thoughts and in my heart. You are brave and strong to let Angel rest in peace and be comforted that she is in a better place.
In order to really enjoy a dog, one doesn't merely try to train him to be semi human. The point of it is to open oneself to the possibility of becoming partly a dog. ~Edward Hoagland