My name is Jeannette Schultz, google me if you want for the news stories.
2 years ago everything was great I had my 2 cats who i allowed in and out through a cat door which I now know was a big mistake. In june of 2005 my cat Chaos disapeaered from my home. I did everthing to find my baby who I had had since he was a kitten. I couldn't find him. 6 months later my second baby went missing. Cabbie was the coolest cat i had ever had. I rescued him from a taxi company yard sleeping under cabs. It was love at first site. As I was waiting for a ride home he jumped in my lap and that was it. Home he went with me. Cabbie always wanted to be outside. He had been a street cat for so long and I was told by my vet that he was at least 10 years old. I was crushed when he went missing. I did not ever give up hope as both my cats disapeared with collars and microchips. they were also licensed with the county i lived in. About 6 months later my neighbors cut down the trees on the property line and found a large pile of orange cat hair. We all assumed it was Cabbie. It was my closure. Now 2 years after they diaspeared I get a call from Bestfriends.org telling me they had my 2 cats. They were found in a feral cat sancuary 1 hour from my house dieing and starving. best friends came and took over the facility after the president of the board was arrested for 125 counts of animal neglict/crulity and over 500 of the cats on the property had already died. I was speachless and so happy to have my babies back again. I was so hurt when they disapeaered that I never got any other animals. Chaos is ok but very under weight. Cabbie on the other hand is very sick. He had heart worms, FIV (aids) and severe anemia. He weighes 6.5 lbs and he was 17lbs when he went missing. He has diarrea that I'm just starting to get a handle on because i started giving him Pepto bismol. I give him I.V. fluids daily. The vet told me that his bone marrow is no longer producing red blood cells. And that he has a 5% chance of survival. This was not a outcome I could except. I did not just get him back to watch him die. The vet had prescibed him antibotics and vitamins. I just moved back to Nevada after fighting for custody of my son for the last 6 months in Northern california. The vet bills are piling up and I just don't know what do do. We are so broke. I am not willing to except the fact that he is going to die. I am sitting here crying while I write this because I feel that there has to be something else I can do, there just has to be a way. Any advise will help. I give him so much love and talk to him constanty and try to tell him he has to fight. He does not seem to be is pain but it hurts me so much to think I may loose him. I was told he can have a bone marrow transplant but it costs 5,000. to 8,000 at UC davis in California, but they would problely not agree to do the transplant because of the FIV. All I want is my baby to have a chance. Some of my friends tell me that I'm nuts to hang on to him like this because he is only a cat but to me he is my child and it feels like i'm losing a very big part of my heart. He has had it so hard living in the sancuary in Parump Nevada in the 100 + tempatures with no shelter and the freezing winters. but I feel if he made it this far he is a fighter. My heart is breaking and all I need is advise, support and people that understand what I'm going through. Any ideas will help. I feed him a diet of boiled chicken and liver which I have to help him eat because most of him teeth are gone. Any thoughts.....
I don't have much advice and nobody can tell you what decision you should make for Cabbie. But you have my sympathy and my heart really goes out to you to see him go through this after losing him once already. I have an elderly cat that has a tumor in her mouth and the prognosis is not good even if I made her go through surgery. Money is not an issue but that would really be just needless additional suffering for Nikita. All I can do is keep her well cared for and show her that she is loved until she gets worse. It will tear my heart out to make the decision to put her down but it's what will have to happen because I will not watch her suffer. I have no children so my animals have always been like my babies. You really have to reach inside yourself and ask what is the quality of Cabbie's life with all of these problems. Will he ever play and eat and lie in the sun like kitties should do? We have no way of knowing how much pain they are in because they can't tell us. Clearly you love him but if the vet only gives him a slim chance for survival even with treatment, you really need to just be grateful that his final days will be with you and that he will know that he was loved. He won't die alone in that horrible place. You are not to blame for what happened and you can't do anything to change it. Just love him as much as you can and he will know. And thank the Lord for whoever came forward to stop the suffering of all those poor cats at that shelter. I just don't know what must be wrong with people sometimes.
I am so so sorry for this, what a story. As others know because they have seen my posts which I am going to do again for you, last year I had the horrible decision on a beloved PUPPY of mine, she was only a year old. Though nobody can tell you what to do, we must always put the betterment of our animals before all else, including our love and our desire to hang on to them. You know in your heart what the right thing is to do. As i have had to say to others, what they have agreed with, when we come looking for support, it's not because we are looking for the "answer" but rather what i said "SUPPORT" on what we know we have to do. You will have it here. I am truly sorry. I wrote this last year....
"IT IS THE LOVE THAT SOMETIMES FORCES US TO DO THE UNBEARABLE. IT IS ALSO THE LOVE THAT SLOWLY HEALS OUR BROKEN HEARTS"
First off I would like to express my sympathy for you & your cat's how devastating & what a emotional roller coaster ride you have been on. I teared up just reading what you had wrote about the cat's & your struggle. God bless you !!! I believe your cat will let you know if thing's become to much for him/her to handle any more if you feel your cat still has quality of life then by all mean's hang in there they are. But if it appears that your cat is only suffering & life is fading away & your hanging on for your own personal resonings then it's time to re-think the situation. It's a tough thing to face but I do know for a fact you don't have to face it alone. Theres alot of people on this site that will give you some good advice on this subject. Just know your not alone & we understand. My thoughts are with you through this challenging time.God Bless!!
Until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawakened!