Hildy Hoo Hoo
3 years Jan that you have been gone and it feels like yesterday...
Your boys and I talk of you often and although we have had other furbabies in our lives- they will never be you nor will there ever be another you.
How could there be?
You guarded my children willing to lay down your life for them. You took them as your own without a second thought.
Many times things went badly during your life with us and you never complained. When my husband and I split and I had to work day and night to make ends meet for us (the family) you never displayed any displeasure only joy when I did get to spend time with you.
When I neglected your wants you still laid at my feet and looked at me with eyes that said I was yours and you were content with that.
When I cried into your coat and hugged you a little too tight you never jerked away even when I'm sure you wanted to.
When your boys were too rough or were acting 'crazy' you didn't nip, growl, or otherwise voice it. You took it all with a wagging tail.
When we seperated the boys wouldn't talk to me about their hurt but many nights I could hear them crying and telling you their hurts, their worries... You were their best friend.
Still to this day your Kaleb talks to your memorial pictures at times and confides in you when he can't seem to talk to anyone else.
When the youngest boy came along and you were really too feeble to handle a rambunctious 'special needs' child, you welcomed him with open 'paws'. He talks about you often even though he only had you for 3 years. That's how special you were and are to him.
The day I let you go.. My heart was breaking and I tried my best to hold it together for you because I knew you would worry. Even though the tears weren't there til after you passed, you 'knew' something was troubling me and did your best to comfort me even through your pain. Never have I met anyone so giving, so trusting, so completely enamored with us...
Your impact on others showed when you passed. Your Dwight was there with me holding my hand and whispering things to you that I can't even imagine today. He loved you like you were his own. Your tribute at his home is beautiful. He has another German Shepherd because of you.
The vet and tech cried along with us. They knew you from the time you trampled into my life until your last moment.
The rest of the extended family called and came by to express their condolences to us and to talk about their 'Hildy' memories. There are so many of those and thats what keeps me going.
You are still and will always be my heart dog, my first mate, true love, and most trusted friend.
I can't wait to see you at the bridge baby girl. I will be the one running, hair all amess, screaming your name.
I love you Hildenbrandt Von Panthera.