As some of you may know, we have been through the painful process of making the decision regarding Kalvin. This past Saturday, Kalvin and I paid a final visit to the vet together.
That day was one of the worst days I've ever had and one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I couldn't not stop bawling. I cried all the way there, during and most of the rest of the day. My daughter keeps asking after him everyday. I feel so guilty and sad and I keep forgetting he's not here. When will it stop?
I am sorry for your loss. I feel your pain last saturday my Rottweiler was diagnoised with bone cancer & it's advanced. My vet was ok with me taking my dog home on pain medication but I needed to make a decision soon. I have decided tomorrow saturday will be are last vet visit. I am scared I have never been through this before & my heart is broken I spent this last week doing things he likes to do. Why do I feel so guilty about this? I keep telling myself this will pass to.
I am so sorry masti. You have my deepest sympathy. I don't think it ever goes away, I am still grieving the loss since December of one of our pets.
Over time, it will sting a little less and you will be able to talk about him easier. Remember the good times, don't beat yourself up for making that decision. It is one of the kindest, bravest and most selfless things we can do for them in their time of suffering.
The best part is, you got your closure with him. So many pets were rehomed when we were kids for really stupid reasons, I never got to say goodbye. I still miss them and think about them to this day.
You will be able to talk to her about it one day and you will help your daughter understand.
Condolences to all those who have lost their beloved pets.
Treat me kindly, my beloved friend. For no heart in all the world is more grateful for kindness than the loving heart of mine.
Please donít break my spirit. Your Patience and understanding will more quickly teach me the things you would have me learn.
Speak to me often, for your voice is the sweetest music to me. As you must know by the fierce wagging of my tail when the sound of your footsteps reaches my waiting ear.
Please take me inside when it is cold and wet, for I walk with man now and am not accustomed to the elements. I ask of no greater reward than to lay at your feet beside the fire.
Keep my pan filled with fresh water. For I cannot tell you when I suffer from thirst.
Feed me clean food that I may stay well and strong. For this I need to romp and play or to stand by your side. I will be the first and foremost to defend. I will be willing to protect with my life, should yours be in danger.
And finally, my best friend, I ask of you one more thing. When I am very old and no longer in good heath. When my bones are weak and sight is dark. Do not make heroic efforts to keep me going. I am no longer having any fun. Please see to it that my life is taken gently. I can then leave this earth knowing, your voice the last I hear, that my fate was always safest in your hands. And I will know that you loved me. And know that I loved you. And most of all know that when I see you again I will be well and waiting to play once again.
I'm so sorry to hear you tell about the passing of your dear old friend. That is one ride you never want to take, but the most compassionate one too. There is no time limit on grief, nor any instructions as how to get through it. Just do whatever will help you at the moment, whether it be crying, and beating the daylights out of your pillow, or whatever you feel like doing. Don't let anyone tell you how to act. I do know that keeping busy helped me, and of course the house work never goes away, and the children and other pets have to be looked after. One day you will not wake up and cry. I will be thinking of you Masti, and here's a big (((HUG))).
it is never easy to say good-bye no matter whether it is to a member of our family, a close friend, or a beloved pet. i have always found comfort in the fact we can control the amount of suffering our pets must endure. i wish people had the same option. our memories are the best way to ease grief, think of the good times and try to not dwell on the pain of seperation. no person or pet is truly gone from this life as long as there is one person who holds their memory in their heart. hugs to all
Run hard and free at the Rainbow Bridge until you can meet up with your owners again.
I know the DX of cancer too well and lost Sock-m to anaplastic sarcoma in 2006. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your baby tonight. Life each moment to the fullest and don't let your baby see you sad as hard as it is. Spoil and love him more than ever before and be there to hold him!!! Don't feel guilty for loving so much that you don't want him to hurt.
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Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I know, in time, my (our) grief will diminish. It's just that it was so much harder than I ever thought it would be (nor did I prepare enough). I, too, felt(feel) that it's better to have the option instead of letting them suffer, but I was definitely naive in thinking that it would be easier than the alternative. I can not believe how guilty I feel for making that decision, even knowing it would be better for him. I continuously look for him, especially when it's his turn to eat, go out, etc. I look for him at the top of the stairs (his spot at night) when I need to go to my girls in the middle of the night. This was the first time I've ever had to go through this, as when I was growing up, the dogs we had inevitably either ran away or in one case got hit by a car. It's especially hard for us with Kalvin as my husband and I got him together when we first lived together.
I must admit, that I'm glad we have the other dogs, as I don't think I could ever get another one had we just had him. Thankfully, (God willing) the rest are all young and we won't have to go through this anytime soon.
I am very sorry Masti. Making these decisions are the some of the hardest in life. Remember, though, that he went over the Rainbow Bridge, and now has no pain and a lot of friends to play with until you meet again. ((HUGS))
"No matter how little money and how few possesions you own, having a dog makes you rich." - Louis Sabin
UGH I am in tears reading your post... Our poodle is going in Thursday and its not looking good. =( I'm 25 and I've had her since 8th grade. I am the only one who stayed behind on family vaca so you know what I mean when I say it's going to be a rough day! Just know lots of thoughts are sent your way as sadly we all know how the pain feels. It is sooo hard to let them go... even if it is time.
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Masti~~ The family and I are feeling your pain. My husband and I went through the same vet trip on St. Patty's Day 2006 when we allowed our 2 dogs to run like pups again. Our youngest, 6 now, still asks where Baby & Pony are. I tell her they haven't gone anywhere, their in the back yard watching over her for always.
Your pain will never fully go away, but trust me, it will get easier. You have been blessed with a loving family, friends, and pets to help you through this. Time heals all things.
God bless you for not being selfish and doing the right thing.
You and your family are in our prayers..
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Masti, My heart hurts for you and your family. I went through the same thing last year with my Siberian Husky Sasha. She had three large tumors that were cancerous and we had to make that BIG decision. I knew she was suffering so we had to have her put to sleep. I still feel guilty about it and miss here terribly but I know she is no longer in any pain. It will a year July 10th and to this day, I will terribly emotional thinking of her. July 10th is going to be a really tough day for me. Believe me, no words can ease your pain but just know that you did the right thing and there are people who know your pain.
That poem someone put on here really touched me and, of course, made the water facets from the eyes run.
You know however, it was for the best. We put two Yorkies down in two years and held both of them while they left, buried both in the back.
Everyone is different, it gets easier every day, but its been 3 1/2 years since the last time and while I no longer cry, I do think of both of them, even though we now have Rocky (Puggle). They are members of your family.
You have my deepest sympathies at the loss of your beloved fur friend. The best gift you can give is that final gift of love and devotion towards their quality of life. Your gift was one made from love.